The lonely empty hammock hooks gaze at me beseechingly. I must do something. Waiting for the bus, I meet a middle-aged man missing some important teeth. I lend him 25 cents and he tells me how amazing it is to do something for others. I agree. The bus fills up quickly and I am jammed against a window with my knees pulled in tight, unpleasant smells wafting closer. I open the window and the crisp scent of wet forest rushes over my face.
I switch buses at Terminal Nacional and ask someone where to get off for Plaza Cinco de Mayo. I walk the wrong way down a crowded street, vendors on both sides, the thick grease of fried meat in the air. A man walks five feet behind me, whistling every few steps. I am not scared, we are surrounded by people, but it is unsettling to be followed. Eventually I stop, turn, and stare straight at him and he slinks away, off the sidewalk, his head down. I realize that I am going away from my destination, and buy some cashew fruits as I backtrack.
The hammock store is open on two sides, covered by a wooden roof. I pass over the bright colorful patterns of fish and triangles, they are all acrylic. I find one of a simple thick cotton. It is cheap, which is why I came to this neighborhood not frequented by tourists. My light eyes and skin stand out as I try to find where to catch the returning bus. A drunk man stops me and asks where I'm from. He tries to grab my arm, a friendly but undesired gesture, and I shake him off sternly. He tells me I'm beautiful, and I cross the busy street with no obvious traffic signals, dodging the speeding buses, trying to find my transport.
I finally find it, near a trash dump. Broken concrete blocks covered in bright plastic and fruit peels, the sweet heavy scent of rot behind a sagging chain link fence. A man hanging out the door of the moving bus tells the driver to stop when I flag him down. There are already people crowded into the aisle; I squeeze on and stumble as I attempt to steady myself with the ceiling rail while still holding my bags. An elderly woman seated next to me wordlessly reaches out and puts my hammock bag onto her lap. I feel so grateful for her compassionate perceptivity.
At home, the hammock is perfect. I drink cold mango juice and take a nap.
